I pulled my hair for 12 years not because i wanted to but i didn't know how to stop

If you live with trichotillomania, skin picking, nail biting, cheek biting, or any body focused repetitive behaviour keep reading. This was written for you too.

From age 12 to 24, I wore a cap every single day. To school. To church. To everywhere eyes could find me. People thought I had cancer. I lost friends. I lost relationships. I lost years of my life to a BFRB most people have never even heard of.

I carried trichotillomania through secondary school, through university, through every season of life that followed.

I sat in a hospital while a doctor performed a biopsy on my scalp, looking for a medical explanation for something only I knew the truth about.

And I said nothing.

Because I didn't have a name for what I was doing. Because the shame had built walls so high I could not see over them.

If you pick, pull, bite, or scratch you know this feeling. The cue. The urge. The relief. The shame after. The promise to yourself that this was the last time. The cycle starting again anyway.

THE RELAPSE

After three years of trying to grow my hair back, after finally plaiting it and feeling something close to hope, my hands found it again. And I cried every single day.

That relapse walked me to the door that changed everything.

Habit Reversal Therapy — the leading evidence-based treatment for trichotillomania, skin picking, and other BFRBs. Six sessions that rewired something I had spent 12 years believing was permanent.

My hair started growing back. And so did everything my BFRB had quietly taken.

WHO THIS IS FOR

This is for you if you live with:

Trichotillomania — hair pulling

Dermatillomania — skin picking

Onychophagia — nail biting

Cheek or lip biting

Or any other body focused repetitive behaviour you've never had a name for

If you have ever sat in a room calculating whether anyone could see what you've done to your skin or hair.

If you have ever cancelled plans because of what happened the night before.

If you have ever fallen asleep ashamed and woken up doing it again.

If you have ever thought you were the only person on earth whose hands did this.

You are not. And you never were.

WHO WROTE THIS

Restored is not written by a doctor or a therapist.

It is written by someone whose hands knew exactly what yours have done.

Someone who lived inside a BFRB for 12 years, did the work, came out the other side, and refused to keep what she learned to herself.

WHAT'S INSIDE RESTORED

✅ Full personal memoir — my complete story, told without softening the hard parts

✅ Complete Habit Reversal Therapy recovery guide — the technique that works across trichotillomania, skin picking, and other BFRBs, explained in plain human language

✅ 150 powerful recovery affirmations — for identity, urges, relapse, faith, morning, evening and freedom

✅ Interactive Recovery Workbook — your personal companion through recovery, adaptable to any BFRB

✅ Trigger tracker, urge diary and progress tracker — see your own patterns clearly enough to interrupt them

✅ Celebration pages and letter templates — because every victory deserves to be marked

✅ 3 personal sessions with me — one every 3 weeks — because recovery is not meant to be carried alone, whatever your BFRB looks like

THE PROMISE

You are not broken. You never were.

Your brain learned a pattern it doesn't yet know how to unlearn — whether that pattern is pulling, picking, biting, or something else entirely. And patterns, no matter how deeply carved, can be broken.

I am proof.

The freedom that felt impossible to me for 12 years is the same freedom waiting for you on the other side of this.

You are already standing at the door.

Walk through it.

Get Restored — your full recovery guide, workbook, and 3 personal sessions with me. $20.

You are Restored.

Jesutofunmi Yewande